Ianto's diary

[likesthecoat]

I used to think love meant forever, but I know better now. I can't offer anyone forever. Even if I offer someone the rest of my life, who knows how long that will be. Or won't be.


I hate feeling torn in two. I hate John thinking I'm only biding my time.



I hate knowing he's right.

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[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

When it comes to personal philosophy, I don't see that religion helps any more than humanitarianism. In fact, I've seen way too many examples of religion screwing up a good thing, making good people to monstrous things (although, come to think of it, I've seen humanitarianism in its most literal sense do that as well).

I don't think that there's a god who's chosen just one planet and/or life form to make his own, but I have to believe that there might be a god (or something that more or less fits into the human idea of god) who takes an equal amount of interest in all worlds. Whether it is personally interested in the lives of all creatures everywhere is not really my department, but believing it exists makes my job a whole lot easier to do.

(Yeah, I think everyone has had to deal with that at one point. I've lost a lot of people. More in the last three years than I care to recall. I don't have an answer for that, and even though I've never read The Problem of Pain, I'm betting C.S. Lewis didn't really have the answer either.)

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

That's always the trouble, isn't it, when trying to comprehend the incomprehensible. Of course a finite mind can't understand the motivations of an infinite one.

Whether it is personally interested in the lives of all creatures everywhere is not really my department, but believing it exists makes my job a whole lot easier to do.

Aren't you a geologist? How does this affect your job?

(Supposedly A Grief Observed is supposed to be the more helpful book to the genuinely mourning. I haven't picked it up yet.)

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

Aren't you a geologist? How does this affect your job?

That would be telling, now wouldn't it?

I used to do geology. And though I'm still technically a geologist, my job's a bit more complicatedthan it used to be. Currently, the program rather likes people who are either very firm in their atheism or fairly certain that God exists.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

That would be telling, now wouldn't it?

Rather the point, that.

Currently, the program rather likes people who are either very firm in their atheism or fairly certain that God exists.

That must make for some interesting workplace conversations.

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

For the most part, the split is scientist/military (scientists in general being atheist and military not), so the conversations were already interesting. Usually, unless it comes up on a mission, people keep their beliefs to themselves. Those who don't...well, they're "special". Actually, I only know of one person in the program who looks down on people for not agreeing with him. But he does that with everything, not just religion.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Interesting. And I assume the organization is such that very few people are both science and military, and all the resulting complications that would come from that.

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

Actually, we've got quite a few military scientists. The main team (for lack of a better term) has one. She's kind of the lead scientist actually. At least in matters of engineering or astrophysics. But I tend to think of them as military. It's the most all-encompassing role. If you're military, even if you're also a scientist, you tend to see things from a military perspective.

As it happens, the colonel (the woman I mentioned above) is Catholic.

The complications that arise generally come when people start stereotyping. I've been called a grunt on more than one occassion. (No matter how many times we try to explain that only Marines are grunts. Airmen are zoomies or flyboys.) And it's common practice to refer to the scientists as geeks. It's usually in good fun, but sometimes people think the stereotypes of those names really do fit, and that's where we run into problems.

Us vs. Them is never a good idea in a close working environment.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Us vs. Them is never a good idea in a close working environment.

It's never a good idea in any environment, I'd say.

It sounds like your team has a fascinating mix of people. We're a much smaller sampling of humanity--I don't think any of us are particularly religious, though G. and I both observe Welsh saints' days. (National pride. You understand.) So it's not come up, really, about how God fits in with what we deal with on a day-to-day basis.

(We don't confide in each other that way very often anyway.)