"I'm finding I like having people I can talk to about this. Near and Sam think he's going to break my heart and Lorne gets quiet and hurt when I bring Jack up. I don't want the others at work knowing so they're out, and there really aren't many others I feel that comfortable confiding in."

He takes a deep breath.

"Jack doesn't do relationships. He's . . . got a very unique perspective on the world. I mean, I wouldn't have him any different, but it does make our future look rather limited.

"And now there's Lorne . . . who I just . . . I want him so much I can hardly bear it."