[Private to Ianto]

Okay, that was a really awkward way of saying it, I guess.

Part of me wants this to be easier, because, god, it fucking hurts to be so far away. And part of me doesn't want it to be easier because, I don't know...I'm afraid of not feeling this, maybe? As long as it hurts, it's real.

I'm not making any sense here. I'm sorry, babe.