I don't know. I don't know what I feel. I like him very much, but love . . . that's where I get hung up on us never having met in person and start thinking I'm just projecting what I want on someone who'll always remain a fantasy.
As for Jack . . . we're friends. We're friends who happen to sleep together and I suspect it ought to stay that way. It's so fragile right now, this whatever-between-us, I feel like it'll collapse if I try to put any more weight on it.
I'm trying to be simple about this: Jack is here and he wants me. Lorne is not here and I don't know if he wants me. And that's all it is.
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Wow. You know how to ask the hard questions.
I don't know. I don't know what I feel. I like him very much, but love . . . that's where I get hung up on us never having met in person and start thinking I'm just projecting what I want on someone who'll always remain a fantasy.
As for Jack . . . we're friends. We're friends who happen to sleep together and I suspect it ought to stay that way. It's so fragile right now, this whatever-between-us, I feel like it'll collapse if I try to put any more weight on it.
I'm trying to be simple about this: Jack is here and he wants me. Lorne is not here and I don't know if he wants me. And that's all it is.