I told him I hadn't slept with Jack since he and I said we loved each other. I said I didn't know if that make a difference to him and he said it did.

Holding me back from what? From being with Jack? Putting a stop to us was my choice--it felt like the right thing to do, I thought it would put Lorne's fears to rest. I wanted him to know he's the most important person in my life. I don't sleep with Jack because of Lorne, yes, but I thought that would be a good thing, not something to make him feel bad. Christ.

I don't get why trying to reassure him only makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong, and I don't get why he doubts me.