[Private to Hakkai] I would like to hear it, if you want to tell the story.
Lisa . . . I lost her before I lost her for good, if that makes sense. I held on longer than I should have--I believed I could makes things better, make it right again, and in the end I couldn't and she died.
I've tried reading about grief, I've tried burying myself in work, and it still gnaws at me every day. I feel guilty for being alive, and I feel guilty about not having been able to do more to help her, and I feel guilty about wanting to move on. And the only thing that I believe will really help me makes me feel guiltiest of all.
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I would like to hear it, if you want to tell the story.
Lisa . . . I lost her before I lost her for good, if that makes sense. I held on longer than I should have--I believed I could makes things better, make it right again, and in the end I couldn't and she died.
I've tried reading about grief, I've tried burying myself in work, and it still gnaws at me every day. I feel guilty for being alive, and I feel guilty about not having been able to do more to help her, and I feel guilty about wanting to move on. And the only thing that I believe will really help me makes me feel guiltiest of all.