[Private to Near]
I don't assume to know anything about what Jack feels. As T. once said, he'll shag anyone as long as they're gorgeous enough, and I think that's the main thing that's holding me back. I've no interest in being just another toy and I'm not convinced he's interested in anything else.

I know it's ridiculous of me, but sometimes, when it's dark and I'm alone and hurting, I think, If Jack were here he'd make it better. And it's absurd.

God. Writing it out like that makes me feel so pathetic.