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likesthecoat) wrote2007-05-16 02:15 pm
likesthecoat) wrote2007-05-16 02:15 pm
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[internet cafe] more of the same.
1. What do you say most when you're trying not to curse?
I swear in Welsh a lot more than in English. It's so much more satisfying to say "Cachau!" than "Shite!"
2. Do you Own An Ipod?
No.
3. Which of your friends do you talk to the most?
Jack, probably. Him or Tosh.
4. What Time Is Your Alarm Clock Set To?
6 a.m. every day.
5. Do You have a broken heart?
. . . it's healing.
6. Do You Wear Flip-Flops When It's Cold?
Good lord, no.
7. Would You Rather Take The Picture Or Be In The Picture?
(Whoever wrote this capitalizes like A.A. Milne.) I'd rather take the picture.
8. What Was The Last Movie You Watched?
I watched one on the telly the other night, but I fell asleep before it ended. Had Spencer Tracy in it. Pat and Mike, I think?
9. But there was no nine...
Number nine . . . number nine . . . number nine . . .
10. Has Anyone Ever Called You Lazy?
Not since I was a schoolboy.
11. Do You Ever Take Medication To Help You Fall Asleep?
No.
12.
...Where's 12?
13. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate Milk?
Regular.
14. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This Week?
Yes.
15. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks?
It's been a year or more. The coffee I make myself is so much better.
16. Can You Whistle?
Yes.
17.Do you have a Trampoline In Your Back Yard?
No, but I don't have a back garden, either.
18. Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back?
Probably.
19.
There was no question nineteen. I hate that.
20. What Movie Do You Know Every Line To?
. . . Shaun of the Dead.
21.
There was no twenty-one.
22.
No twenty-two, either. Is counting too difficult for these poeple...?!
23. Do You Own Any Band T-Shirts?
Oasis, the Beatles, Sex Pistols. Some of them are classics.
24. What Is Your Favorite Salad Dressing?
It depends on the salad, don't you think? I like something with a little bite to it, though.
25. Is anyone in love with you?
No.
26. Do You Do Your Own Dishes?
Yes.
27. Ever Cry In Public?
Not recently.
28.
?
29.
?
30.
?
31. Would You Ever Date Anyone Covered In Tattoos?
Yes.
32. What Did You Do Before This?
Talked to Matt and Near a bit, made coffee, looked after Myfanwy.
33. When Was The Last Time You Slept On The Floor?
I can't sleep on the floor. I sleep on sofas just fine, though.
34. How Many Hours Of Sleep Do You Need To Function?
I've managed on two.
35. Do You Eat Breakfast Daily
Yes.
36. Are Your Days Full And Fast ?
The days are just packed.
37. What are you doing right now?
Killing time in the tourist office.
38. Do you use sarcasm?
Frequently and well.
39.
...This is actually starting to annoy me. I'm with Near.
40. Are You Picky About Spelling And Grammar?
Yes.
41. Have You Ever Been To Six Flags?
No, I don't believe I have.
42. Have you ever got beaten up?
Yes.
43. Do You Get Along Better With The Same Sex Or The Opposite?
I get along fine with both. (As well I should, I'd say.)
44.
...
45. Do You Sleep On Your Side, Stomach, Or Back?
My side, usually.
46. Do You Watch The news?
Yes.
47. How Did You Get Your Scars?
The scars on my knees are from rugby, and I have one on my neck from work.
48. Who Was The Last Person To Make You Mad?
O. He's very good at it.
49. Do you like anyone?
Yes.
50. What was the last item you purchased?
The shopping over the weekend. I treated myself to some grapes.
I'm almost afraid of the answers I'll get to this one:
If I had amnesia, what would you tell me about myself? Personality, hobbies, relationships, friendships and general information are all fair game.
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It's a little... backward, but it can help if someone has difficulty expressing themselves verbally in an emotional fashion. I think it helped me a lot, in the beginning.
...Oh dear. I've never actually been to a pub. I've been in a hotel bar, twice, and that's about it. Once with Sam and Matt, and once with just Dean and myself. It was nice, but they were very quiet and spacious... I don't think I'd like a proper pub. Who were you there with, may I ask?
You'll notice that I did make that suggestion several comments up. There are a lot of possible negative repercussions, but at this stage, from having spoken with you about it at length... I don't know if any of them could be worse than what you're going through already. It's clearly very much on your mind, and even the wrong decision might be better than all this indecision.
[OOC: Heh. They really are. I've heard some doozies in my time.
Oh? Do tell.]
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I'm now imaginingg Jack's response if my journal becomes filled with "Oh Jack I LUV U" type entries. It's not pretty.
Re: the pub. I went alone. I think I should have stayed longer and drunk more.
Yes, you did, and perhaps that's the path to take. Jack responds well to direct. If I weren't in such a rotten mood I'd go right now.
[ooc: I don't actually know of a drinking game for it. It just sounds like it would be amusing if people were creative enough.]
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Well, no. I wouldn't be impressed by that, either. ...I'd at least demand an attempt at proper spelling. Anyway, there's no need to start off with a declaration of love. A simple 'we need to talk' might work, because then the other person is definitely going to assume the worst, and anything positive you have to say is going to be a bonus.
...I just saw your other post, yes. That was, perhaps... Not the best of ideas, but it could have gone worse, too. At least this way you know what you don't want, which is something.
I'm not sure now is a good idea, either, but you should remember how much you want to go now, for later, when you're more sober and less depressed. Just in case you find yourself reconsidering when you wake up.
[OOC: Nor I. I've never been good at coming up with them, but I've seen some hilarious ones around for various fandoms. Of course, you could base a whole game around Ianto appearing at all in most of the early eps, and you probably wouldn't even get drunk...]
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If it weren't too far to walk and I were sober enough to drive, I would anyway. The only times I'm brave enough to touch him is when I'm drunk. I held his hand once. Told him poetry. I don't know why I didn't kiss him: it was a perfect moment.
I wouldn't say I loved him, anyway. It wouldn't be true. You don't have to love someone to want them.
I was hoping for life affirmation, really. Everybody gets laid after funerals, don't they? I've been waiting a long time. Unfortunately it wasn't affirming, it was just . . . meaningless. Stupid. A stupid thing to want and a stupid thing to do.
[ooc: Neither am I. The only part of a Torchwood game I'd want is "Jack and Ianto kiss: CHUG."]
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...That icon is both amusing and slightly worrying.
You shouldn't have to wait until you're drunk. That doesn't... bode well. But... If you must... Have an unofficial 'bring a bottle to work' day?
No. But... You do seem to want him an awful lot...
I suppose they do. But not usually with a stranger when their partner recently died, because it probably won't help matters much. It wasn't stupid, it just wasn't very helpful, which is unfortunate, but there's absolutely no sense in beating yourself up about it. You tried to do something to make yourself feel better, which is, I think, very admirable and sensible. All right, it didn't work, but that doesn't mean it was stupid. You learned something, at least-- you're not at a point in your life right now where meaningless encounters are for you. That's worth knowing. The more things you know you don't want, the closer you'll get to finding out what it is that you do.
[OOC: Hahaha. Awesome. Though I don't think you'd get drunk off that, either...]
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It's from a comic strip. (This one <-- is my current favorite, though.)
No, I shouldn't, but I'm sure you've noticed how relaxing takes a bit of an effort for me. Contradiction in terms. Yes.
I know. I do. It's emotion: it doesn't have to make sense.
I'm not beating myself. up. It's just . . . there's so much I can do perfectly. Efficiently. So smoothly it's like it happens by magic. When it comes to my own life I fumble along like a blind man.
[ooc: All you need is a big enough drink . . .]
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That's very good, yes.
I know. But maybe you should find a way that's kinder to your liver and your brain cells...? Exercise or meditation or the like.
Is lust an emotion? I thought it was a physical reaction...
...I really know exactly how that feels. Ianto... Maybe I'm not the best person to be giving advice on this particular topic...
[OOC: Hee. I've heard so much about that scene and I've yet to see it. Only two eps left for me. ;_;]
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I don't drink that often, I really don't. And I do run a lot. Sometimes . . . it's just not enough.
Emotion, reaction . . . I don't know.
I suspect there's really not that much advice to give at this point. I need to talk to Jack. It's as simple as that.
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I know, I was just... sort of teasing, sort of nagging. I think I should get out my stepladder... It's not enough, of course. But I don't think this was quite what you were looking for, either...
Right. I always thought of lust as an expression of the sex drive. Love is an emotion, though.
I think so too, but... I just wouldn't want to give you bad advice because I have a... personal bias. And obviously, I would never want to see you get hurt in any way. I do think you need to talk to him, though, and I think it's good that you feel ready and able to. I don't know how much help I am, but if ever you need to talk, I'm around. I'm on LJ most of the time, and if not, I'm almost always reachable on AIM via gundamsmash.
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It could be argued that any emotion has a neurochemical basis. But I won't today.
How do you mean, personal bias?
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They do, of course. But I still think there's a difference in a drive an emotion. Drives are harder to resist and emotions are... different.
I tried to involve myself with someone who was... unattainable... once, and... I ended up getting very badly hurt. I don't regret it, because of Matt, but... It did still hurt. A lot. So maybe my advice is overly cautious. I wouldn't want any friend to go through that, especially someone who'd already experienced a recent loss.
That said, I think you know what you're doing. You're not me, and Jack isn't Mello. You have more sense, and more experience, and I'm quite sure that Jack doesn't openly resent you and secretly want to punish you. (I don't think he's a sex addict, either.) He does care about you, and I don't think you have any illusions about him. You'll be fine.
...And besides, no matter what happens, it can't possibly be worse than tormenting yourself about it like you have been.
[OOC: Pre-dated to before the genderswitch, obvs. Post-switch Near isn't capable of being nearly so sensible. XD]
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I don't know about illusions, to be honest. I like to think I see him clearly and understand him, but I do have . . . hopes. Let's call them hopes.
(I don't think he's a sex addict, either.)
For some reason that makes me laugh.