Near. Just accept the compliment in the spirit in which it's intended, would you? I trust you. That's the long and the short of it.
I don't think it's really fair for you to put yourself in the position of feeling uncomfortable about pursuing relationships
I feel uncomfortable about it because that's me. When I'm free, I'm free; when I'm with someone, I'm with them. And I consider myself with Jack right now because . . . well, I'm not really sure why, it just sits best with me. The truth of it is, I don't know what Jack wants or doesn't want with me either, aside from the obvious; and while I'm enjoying the obvious very much I just don't want to bring up the possibility of more just yet. Or less, for that matter. It's too soon, we're too new, and Jack doesn't do commitment on a general basis, as far as I can tell. (I know he's had serious relationships in the past, insofar as he's referred to boyfriends and girlfriends, but if that's what he wants with me it just hasn't come up yet.)
And to be perfectly honest, I'm almost afraid to ask because I don't want to hear him say he's seeing other people. I just don't. If he is, I'd just rather not know.
I also have no idea whether or not Lorne would be interested in having that sort of relationship with you-- he is, as you've said, a military man, and as I understand it, having "that sort" or relationship would pretty much end his career.
Yes. How do you ask someone to give up their life's dream for you? You can't, not really, and so I've tried to avoid it whenever we've gotten close. Oh, lord, Near, there have been so many times I've just wanted to reach through the computer monitor and pull him here. It's driving me crazy to want to know and not be able to find out if I'm kidding myself or not--if I'm seeing things that aren't there, yeah?
I'll tell you something: I don't believe in soul mates. I think love is largely a matter of timing and circumstance, and I don't think there's just One Person for everyone. But that's not to say I don't believe love can be lasting and permanent--it's just very difficult to figure out what that is.
The other possibility is that you and Lorne are just very much mentally and emotionally compatible, and you're ridiculously unlucky given the timing of your meeting and both your current life circumstances.
Yes. That's occurred to me. He's wherever-the-hell-he-is and I have the person I've been wanting for months, and it's just . . . right thing, wrong time. Utterly.
. . . I know how to get myself out of handcuffs. But I'll definitely call you if I'm ever in desperate need for Lego.
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I don't think it's really fair for you to put yourself in the position of feeling uncomfortable about pursuing relationships
I feel uncomfortable about it because that's me. When I'm free, I'm free; when I'm with someone, I'm with them. And I consider myself with Jack right now because . . . well, I'm not really sure why, it just sits best with me. The truth of it is, I don't know what Jack wants or doesn't want with me either, aside from the obvious; and while I'm enjoying the obvious very much I just don't want to bring up the possibility of more just yet. Or less, for that matter. It's too soon, we're too new, and Jack doesn't do commitment on a general basis, as far as I can tell. (I know he's had serious relationships in the past, insofar as he's referred to boyfriends and girlfriends, but if that's what he wants with me it just hasn't come up yet.)
And to be perfectly honest, I'm almost afraid to ask because I don't want to hear him say he's seeing other people. I just don't. If he is, I'd just rather not know.
I also have no idea whether or not Lorne would be interested in having that sort of relationship with you-- he is, as you've said, a military man, and as I understand it, having "that sort" or relationship would pretty much end his career.
Yes. How do you ask someone to give up their life's dream for you? You can't, not really, and so I've tried to avoid it whenever we've gotten close. Oh, lord, Near, there have been so many times I've just wanted to reach through the computer monitor and pull him here. It's driving me crazy to want to know and not be able to find out if I'm kidding myself or not--if I'm seeing things that aren't there, yeah?
I'll tell you something: I don't believe in soul mates. I think love is largely a matter of timing and circumstance, and I don't think there's just One Person for everyone. But that's not to say I don't believe love can be lasting and permanent--it's just very difficult to figure out what that is.
The other possibility is that you and Lorne are just very much mentally and emotionally compatible, and you're ridiculously unlucky given the timing of your meeting and both your current life circumstances.
Yes. That's occurred to me. He's wherever-the-hell-he-is and I have the person I've been wanting for months, and it's just . . . right thing, wrong time. Utterly.
. . . I know how to get myself out of handcuffs. But I'll definitely call you if I'm ever in desperate need for Lego.