your eyes only

[likesthecoat]

[Filtered to Lorne]

I finally talked to Jack about us--about you and I, and he and I. It's going to be fine.

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[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

I'm just no good at dealing with hypotheticals. I want to know for sure if it'd be worth it. I want to know for sure if we'd be happy. I don't like wondering. And I know that's not how these things work.

What did that song say? "I'd rather be working for a paycheck than waiting to win the lottery?" This feels like waiting to win the lottery sometimes.

I'm not scared because of the possible consequences (well, not entirely). I'm scared because I've never really done this with a guy before. Had a relationship, I mean, if that's what this is.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

We'll never know until we give it a try. That's why I think we should start small--working for the paycheck, as it were. If you give up everything now, that's a big risk and one I can't ask you to take. But a week or two? That's where we start. And if it doesn't work out, you'll go back to your life and I'll go back to mine and we'll go back to having quizwars and joking about coffee.

And if it does work out, then the real adventure begins.

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

I forget sometimes that the rest of the world doesn't work the same way as it does out here. Not everything is split-second life-changing decisions. I forget that I'm allowed to take time to think about things, to work it out, see what's right.

So, starting small, yes? I can do that.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

This is one decision that can and should be made slowly.

I'll stop poking you about shore leave. Just . . . sooner rather than later, please.

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know. I'm just not used to having that luxury.

I really am working on it. Believe me, I'm as anxious as you are.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Knowing that you're anxious shouldn't make me so happy, but it does.

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

See? There was something I could do to make you happy.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Yes. Saying you want me has that effect. I'm a man of simple needs.

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

I'll keep that in mind. And if you ever need reminding, I'm always happy to tell you I want you.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

And use the tongue icon, of course.

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

Well, if you insist.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Hello.

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

Hi there.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Come here often?

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

Only when I notice a really hot guy in the window.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Ah . . . someone's caught your fancy, then.

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah. Tall guy. Dark hair. Really cute smile.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Lucky bloke.

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

Lucky me.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

*laughs* I can't very well say "yes, you are," can I?

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

Why not?

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Because it's poor breeding?

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

Or it shows self-confidence. And makes you agreeable.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Hm.

Okay, then. Yes. You are damn lucky.

[rockscientist.livejournal.com]

Much better.