A few months is nothing. Frankly, I'm amazed that it hasn't been longer-- from your general demeanor and ability to deal with things, I would never have known. Don't try to rush the grieving process or expect too much of yourself, or be disappointed or angry with yourself when it swells again. It hasn't been very long, and it's perfectly natural to still be experiencing the sort of thing you're talking about here.
It will get better. Of course it will.
But maybe not soon, and you'll probably always still miss her.
I don't think that's a bad thing. It means she touched your life, and was someone who meant something to you. I won't pretend to know what you're going through, but I have experienced loss, of a kind, and... Even though it hurts, that's a good thing, because it means we were lucky enough to have someone in our lives that meant something to us, even if we were unlucky enough to lose them... Though maybe it's different when it's a partner. I don't know.
In any case, I'm sorry. But I really do think you're holding up incredibly well, and you when you have days like these, you should just let yourself feel them. it's horrible, but natural, and as time goes on, the spaces between them will grow and you will have a life again, if you want one. You're a good person, so you deserve it, and you're strong, so you can make it happen.
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A few months is nothing. Frankly, I'm amazed that it hasn't been longer-- from your general demeanor and ability to deal with things, I would never have known. Don't try to rush the grieving process or expect too much of yourself, or be disappointed or angry with yourself when it swells again. It hasn't been very long, and it's perfectly natural to still be experiencing the sort of thing you're talking about here.
It will get better. Of course it will.
But maybe not soon, and you'll probably always still miss her.
I don't think that's a bad thing. It means she touched your life, and was someone who meant something to you. I won't pretend to know what you're going through, but I have experienced loss, of a kind, and... Even though it hurts, that's a good thing, because it means we were lucky enough to have someone in our lives that meant something to us, even if we were unlucky enough to lose them... Though maybe it's different when it's a partner. I don't know.
In any case, I'm sorry. But I really do think you're holding up incredibly well, and you when you have days like these, you should just let yourself feel them. it's horrible, but natural, and as time goes on, the spaces between them will grow and you will have a life again, if you want one. You're a good person, so you deserve it, and you're strong, so you can make it happen.