Hm...I completely identify with what you're saying. The anger, the grief, the fact that with them gone, you just feel so utterly empty inside.
I hope that your faith in love isn't lost completely, merely misplaced for the time being while you work through things. It sounds like you need to do one of the most difficult things imaginable, and that is to forgive yourself - something I continually struggle with.
Perhaps our paths aren't that different; I'm just a pace or two ahead of you. I thought I could just exist without those hurtful emotions, but in doing so, I haven't been living. I think it's about time I started to live once more. It's frightening, to leave the comfort of this self-imposed spiritual prison I've dumped myself into, and it's just as likely I'll fail as I will succeed; however, as a wise Welshman told me once, love is always a risk...
I hope that you find yourself one day able to take such a risk of your own...
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Hm...I completely identify with what you're saying. The anger, the grief, the fact that with them gone, you just feel so utterly empty inside.
I hope that your faith in love isn't lost completely, merely misplaced for the time being while you work through things. It sounds like you need to do one of the most difficult things imaginable, and that is to forgive yourself - something I continually struggle with.
Perhaps our paths aren't that different; I'm just a pace or two ahead of you. I thought I could just exist without those hurtful emotions, but in doing so, I haven't been living. I think it's about time I started to live once more. It's frightening, to leave the comfort of this self-imposed spiritual prison I've dumped myself into, and it's just as likely I'll fail as I will succeed; however, as a wise Welshman told me once, love is always a risk...
I hope that you find yourself one day able to take such a risk of your own...