whistling past graveyards

[likesthecoat]

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You know, it's not every day in this job that the bad guys are ordinary people.

It's happened before, of course. What we thought was something malicious and powerful turned out to be petty and small. But still evil. Make no mistake about that.

This . . . I can't say it was evil. More that it was desperate--the same kind of desperation that drives people into a frenzy to feel.

When I want to feel alive, I run. I swim. I cook. I visit family. I talk to friends. If I'm very lucky, I make love.

I can't imagine a life so empty that the only thing that gives it purpose is to risk death.

Comments

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

We're all okay. Some more okay than others.

Addiction's the same no matter what you're addicted to. That doesn't make it any less troubling.

[sparkingfreak.livejournal.com]

well I hope you all reach the same higher level of okayness soon.

Addictions are complicated things- that's why therapists make so much money. The whole Pain/Adrenaline thing as a drug is very common where I come from, goes with the demon territory I think. Wolfram and Hart have a hand in a ring of demon fight clubs round LA. Even when one was shut down a few years back, people still flocked to the next one.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Time heals and all that.

I know they're complicated, but it still comes down to a desire for fulfillment from an external source.

So you're in the demon business, are you?

[sparkingfreak.livejournal.com]

good luck to you guys and let me know if there's anything I can do to help. Got a gorgeous villa in Milan if anyone needs any away time.

Fulfillment, or the chance to forget some shit, or pretend for a while. Your icon is very appropriate. Sometimes, some people can't find peace from within so they take what they can get from anywhere. Whatver they need to keep the mask on for the outside world. It's not so hard to understand really.

Sorry, thought you knew. Yeah, freak like me and the demon world go well together, fit in slightly better with them than the humans. I kinda work for a law firm called Wolfram and Hart (although that's become a whole lot more complicated lately) , founded by ancient demons. The black arts and the occult is where the big money is. Been known to do some demon ass kicking on the odd occasion (although it tends to be more me getting my ass kicked.)

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

It's hard for me to understand why someone would rather seek fulfillment from an external source that gives ever-diminishing returns than to try and reconcile one's self with the problem.

No, I don't believe you've mentioned it before.

[sparkingfreak.livejournal.com]

some problems can't be fixed so people have to go externally to try to forget for a while. Trust me, I do some pretty fucked up shit sometimes to try to forget I'm a freak. I guess some people are just weaker than others.

Ah, sorry, thought I had! (lose track sometimes of what I've said where!) I won't bore you with any details here, they're over in my journal if you're curious.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

I've always taken my comfort in other people so that's what makes sense to me. Maybe it's my way of being weak.

I'll have to look sometime.

[sparkingfreak.livejournal.com]

it aint weak to take comfort in others. Just not everyone has anyone else. If you're on your own some crazy shit starts to make sense.

You're always welcome to sugar, any time. could always use another perspective on the weirdness that is my life!