[internetcafe] the Captain

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I promised to talk about my boss at some point. This is as good a point as any.

The Captain recruited me from my former place of employment (which came to an abrupt end due to external circumstances) and brought me back to Cardiff. The job itself is less prestigious and lower-paying than my old one, but we're a smaller facility and I didn't have much senority there anyway. I had my own reasons for staying with the organization, but that ended a few months ago.

So the question arose as to whether I'd stay or go. Leaving, however, was never a real option for me--not just because of the work, but because of the man.

I had to take a bit of a walk just now, trying to get my thoughts together and deciding how much to say and how to say it. Have you ever had someone who is everything you're not, everything you wish you could be, everything you know you'll never be? Someone, in my case, who is charismatic and confident and charming, and who, by some perversion of fate, seems to find you . . . intriguing.

That's the Captain.

I don't know if it's attraction due to novelty, or attraction due to gratitude (our line of work is not safe by any means, and he's saved my life more than once), or some kind of hero-worship. Or what.

It's all very confusing and frustrating and I swear sometimes if he says one more thing about my suits I may take a swing at him. Or snog him senseless. I haven't decided yet.

Comments

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

For you, emotionally. Or even for both of you, literally, if your job is as dangerous as it seems to be and things were to go... wrong between you.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

I see.

There's a lot of history between the two of us, not all of it pretty. And a lot of trust to be regained on both sides. Perhaps it is best to step back and be practical for a while.

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

That would be my advice (as usual).

I... rushed into a similar situation not too long ago, and had certain other parties not been involved, I suspect things would have ended very badly for everyone.

It's sad and it's unfortunate, but it might be your best course of action, for the moment at least.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Very well. Resolved: to take things slow and think it all over carefully.

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

The beauty of waiting is that you can almost always do whatever it is later; undoing something after you've rushed in is another story, however.

Good luck, regardless.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

I'll try to keep you all updated on what happens. (Not in too much detail, of course. That would just be silly.)

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

Please do, and I hope it works out for you one way or another.

I'm on AIM sometimes, too, and my screenname... is not in my profile. I should fix that later. Anyway, it's gundamsmash, should you ever wish to talk.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I'll keep that in mind.