[internetcafe] the Captain

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I promised to talk about my boss at some point. This is as good a point as any.

The Captain recruited me from my former place of employment (which came to an abrupt end due to external circumstances) and brought me back to Cardiff. The job itself is less prestigious and lower-paying than my old one, but we're a smaller facility and I didn't have much senority there anyway. I had my own reasons for staying with the organization, but that ended a few months ago.

So the question arose as to whether I'd stay or go. Leaving, however, was never a real option for me--not just because of the work, but because of the man.

I had to take a bit of a walk just now, trying to get my thoughts together and deciding how much to say and how to say it. Have you ever had someone who is everything you're not, everything you wish you could be, everything you know you'll never be? Someone, in my case, who is charismatic and confident and charming, and who, by some perversion of fate, seems to find you . . . intriguing.

That's the Captain.

I don't know if it's attraction due to novelty, or attraction due to gratitude (our line of work is not safe by any means, and he's saved my life more than once), or some kind of hero-worship. Or what.

It's all very confusing and frustrating and I swear sometimes if he says one more thing about my suits I may take a swing at him. Or snog him senseless. I haven't decided yet.

Comments

[gun-youdown.livejournal.com]

I'm voting for the snogging. But that's just me.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Some days I'm inclined to agree with you.

[gun-youdown.livejournal.com]

Snogging is my answer for everything, though. :D

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Oddly enough, it's also his--that or shooting someone. And he wouldn't shoot me.

Probably.

[gun-youdown.livejournal.com]

Sounds just like me. Bet I'd get along with him just fine.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Oh, lord. Save me from the trigger-happy.

[gun-youdown.livejournal.com]

Near's not partial to my guns so I try not to keep them on the low. I'm not so big on them as I used to be.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

I don't like them either. I know how to use them--have to--but I don't carry one with me at all times. The Captain does.

[gun-youdown.livejournal.com]

I used to carry mine all the time, but not so much now.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Personally I can't imagine having that thing on my belt all the time. But some people find it reassuring, I suppose?

[gun-youdown.livejournal.com]

Hnn. I did. But back then I wasn't in the safest of situations, so I felt it necessary to have.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

That's understandable, I suppose. Still, not a situation I'd be comfortable in. And (to return to the original point) having someone with a gun around all the time doesn't necessarily make me feel safe, either. The Captain has not hesitated to draw it no matter what the circumstances, and while in one case it did save my life, in others . . . I'd just rather he didn't.