[filtered] this is not about Lego

[likesthecoat]

[Filtered to Near and Sam]

Last night I told Lorne I love him. Well, what I said was "I think I love you" which is probably not what most people dream of hearing, but it's also the truth.

His response was less than heartening.

I think I could have reacted better; but as it was I was too embaressed to stick around any further and cut off the conversation, and then rang Jack, because what's better when you feel rejected than someone who'll never say no to you.

(Though to be fair Lorne didn't say he'd never love me--he just said he wasn't sure yet. Still. Not what somebody wants to hear back.)

Either way, I'm using Jack terribly though I doubt he minds that much. And now I have to wonder how I'm going to speak to Lorne again, having this between us.

In sum, this relationship thing sucks and I'm terrible at it. I even had a good long conversation with Martha over the weekend about my harem and she thinks Jack would be better for me as he's actually here, and . . . I wish somebody would just tell me "this person is right for you."

Of course, nobody knows that, do they? Not for other people, at any rate, and not always for themselves.

So. How are you?

Comments

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

Well, I don't wear the kimono, obviously. Or those stupid (and presumably deeply uncomfortable) shoes.

I can use a sword, though.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

I have no doubt you can use a sword. It's you, shuffling along like your legs are bound . . . freaky.

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

I'll demonstrate for you this weekend. :D

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

*claps hands* OH BOY!


*smiles*

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

You might have to get me drunk first, though.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

Would Matt ever forgive me if I did?

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

For what, watching me stumble around drunkenly? Don't worry, it really isn't anything he hasn't seen before.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

For getting you drunk, I mean.

[ooc: bedtime.]

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

Matt wouldn't care about that in the slightest, so long as I didn't try to drive myself home or anything like that. No need for concern, don't worry.

[OOC: NP. :)]

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

No fear--if I got you that drunk I'd take the keys away.

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

A sensible idea.

I won't be driving, though; I'm not nearly good enough to go driving about on the roads alone at night in an area I'm not familiar with. Besides, I couldn't take Matt's baby away with me while I was gone myself. He'd be totally beside himself with both of us gone...

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

If I had a beauty like that I wouldn't be able to tear myself away from it, either.

How long is he going to be gone? Should I stock up on more ice cream to comfort you through the Matt-less weekend?

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

The Koenigsegg, or his proper car? Because he only had the Koenigsegg for the day. He's much too attached to his own one for me to get him another one, even one as amazing as that. I do like his own car, though. We've been through a lot in it.

Oh, he'll probably just be gone from Saturday morning. I won't say no to ice cream, but I should probably head back that night/early morning so he doesn't have to spend the night by himself. I don't want him to have to be alone again so soon after New York.

He didn't handle being by himself too well, and... he doesn't really sleep without me there.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

All right--no heavy drinking and I'll get you safely back on the train, full of ice cream. (And jam.)

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

I'm not going back on the train alone in the middle of the night, are you mad? I'll get folded up and put in someone's rucksack, and then be sold into child slavery.

Besides, I'd have to leave way too early for that. I'll have a driver come pick me up in the small hours, it's fine.

Thank you, though.

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

. . . people travel by train all the time, and are very rarely sold into slavery. Very, very rarely.

But yes. Be all posh and get a driver.

[legofortress.livejournal.com]

"Very, very rarely" is not as iron-clad as I would like it to be. Can you imagine what would happen if I were sold into slavery? The world would grind to a halt, obviously. And you'd all have to watch Matt going slowly mad. Or quickly mad, probably. And who would give really obvious advice and sort out everyone's emotional dilemmas?

It would be a terrible thing. Best I just take the safe route and have someone drive me.

Especially if I'd be drunk end up getting off at the wrong stop and wandering around god knows where at five in the morning...

[morethanteaboy.livejournal.com]

The world would grind to a halt as we tore it apart to find you. Because we can't live without your obvious advice and sorting abilities.

You're absolutely right, though. Use your driver.