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Jack is cross with me, Gwen is cross with Jack, and I suspect Lorne is cross with Jack and me.

Fun times.

You see, there was a boy named Jonah Bevan. He disappeared seven months ago, and came back about four months ago. But he came back different--came back aged and wounded and mad.

I thought I was doing the right thing, letting Gwen know where Jonah could be found, but now Gwen is even further disillusioned, Jonah's mother doesn't want to see him, and Jack and I had a long talk involving words like "trust" and "secrets." Well, he did most of the talking. Well, yelling. Well, not that much yelling. Jack rarely yells at me. What he does is worse--he's disappointed.

And that's . . . that's hard to take.

So I'm home now and playing with Kai, since he loves me unconditionally and never looks at me like I've broken his heart. It's always good to be reminded of why we do this.

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I'm not cross with you, baby.

I'm a little cross with Jack, and a little cross with Gwen, but not with you.

Thank you, sweetheart.

There's really no reason to be cross with either of them. We're just fumbling along, like usual.

I'm only cross with Jack for yelling at you.

And Gwen...yeah, I don't know. Sometimes I think she cares just a little too much.

He didn't yell. He . . . was stern.

She wouldn't be Gwen if she didn't care too much.

Yeah, but he upset you. I'm not okay with that.

No, she wouldn't, but she'd have a hell of an easier time of it.

I shouldn't have gone behind his back. I knew his reasons. Of course, I also knew that Gwen would persist until she got her answers.

I'm just going to keep my head down at work for a while.

He shouldn't have expected you to keep something like that a secret. And he should have understood why you did what you did.

I think everyone's going to be keeping their heads down for a while.

Lorne, I keep all of his secrets. Usually I'm much better at it.

He's Jack. He...well, that's all the explanation I can give.

I know you do. And you shouldn't have to. He shouldn't expect that from you.

Yeah, that's all the explanation anyone ever gives.

If I don't, who would?

Nobody. He can keep his own damn secrets.

Do you really want to do this here?

Do what? This bit where you defend Jack no matter what?

And then we fight about it. Lovely. Just what I need tonight.

I don't want to fight about it. I know you've had a rough couple of days. I just...

I'm just frustrated about the whole thing, I guess.

He's still my friend. Friends should be loyal.

I keep your secrets too, you know. It's not something exclusive to Jack.

You think I'm frustrated because I'm jealous?

I'm frustrated because he's taking advantage of your relationship.

I don't think you're jealous and I don't want to have this fight.

I just want to do my goddamn job.

Edited 2009-08-23 02:23 (UTC)

Fine. Do your goddamn job.

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I'm sorry. I don't want to fight either.

What can I do to help?

[Private to Lorne]

I don't know.

I'm going for a walk.

[Private to Ianto]

Okay. I'll...be here when you get back.

I love you.

I'm sorry to hear you had such a rough time at work... but, if it's any small consolation, it's good to see you again. It's been a while since I've heard from you.

Thank you. I know, I've not felt much like blogging lately.

Gwen's gotta realize at some point that not everything gets a happy ever after. I'd thought she'd have learned that one already; she's been around long enough.

I suspect Jack will let it go when something shiny and new grabs his attention. And even though I'd have taken Jack's side once upon a time (simply because I know how Gwen can be), you probably did the right thing.

She still has hope. I actually don't want her to ever lose that.

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