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Jul. 28th, 2012 08:50 amwE WaNT tEn PeRCenT oF tHE ChilDren OF tHiS woRld.
( contains spoilers for Torchwood: Children of Earth, Day Four )
( contains spoilers for Torchwood: Children of Earth, Day Four )
There is a video no one will ever see.
(No final logout, no final video.)
Ianto speaks very plainly and simply.
"Torchwood employees die young. I've always known this. If you're seeing this, it means I did not beat the odds.
"I would like to say, most of all, how happy I was with my life. I had a gorgeous husband, a darling son, coworkers I could trust and a family I adored. All of these things are worth living and fighting for--and dying for.
"If I have lost--if I am dead--know that it is without regrets."
Only now does emotion well up in his eyes.
"Lorne, I love you. I love you with every breath and every heartbeat. You are the best thing to happen to me.
"Gwen. You have always been amazing to me. All the things I could never be. Warm and loving and open to everyone. You're going to make a great mam someday.
"Jack." He pauses, smiles. "You'll forget me. But I hope not soon.
"I know Kai will never see this, but all three of you must kiss him for me and tell him Tada--" His voice shakes again and he pauses to steady it. "Tell him Tada wishes he could kiss him good night."
He smiles again and shuts off the camera.
(No final logout, no final video.)
Ianto speaks very plainly and simply.
"Torchwood employees die young. I've always known this. If you're seeing this, it means I did not beat the odds.
"I would like to say, most of all, how happy I was with my life. I had a gorgeous husband, a darling son, coworkers I could trust and a family I adored. All of these things are worth living and fighting for--and dying for.
"If I have lost--if I am dead--know that it is without regrets."
Only now does emotion well up in his eyes.
"Lorne, I love you. I love you with every breath and every heartbeat. You are the best thing to happen to me.
"Gwen. You have always been amazing to me. All the things I could never be. Warm and loving and open to everyone. You're going to make a great mam someday.
"Jack." He pauses, smiles. "You'll forget me. But I hope not soon.
"I know Kai will never see this, but all three of you must kiss him for me and tell him Tada--" His voice shakes again and he pauses to steady it. "Tell him Tada wishes he could kiss him good night."
He smiles again and shuts off the camera.
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Aug. 17th, 2010 07:17 pm
[Filtered to friends]We're alive.
The government want Torchwood dead. The Hub is destroyed, Myfanwy is dead, our guests are dead, Jack was dead...he got better.
Rhys is in hiding with Melina and Kai. I'm praying my brothers and their families aren't in any danger. I don't dare contact them to tell them to run.
But I have Lorne. And he has me. And we're going to get through this.
I think the owner of this computer is coming back. Wish us luck.
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Aug. 16th, 2010 07:44 pm [Filtered to friends]Today was a rather terrifying day to be a parent. Kai seems to be unharmed from the ... whatever it was. (Jack theorized that it was a pulse of some kind, but that was before the second ... whatever it was.) Matilda is keeping close to him, of course.
Anyway, we're working on it. I came home basically for us to have supper together and kiss Kai goodnight, and then it's back to work.
Ianto and Nikola, post vampire-prom
Jul. 5th, 2010 10:58 pmIanto's staff room is slowly taking on the appearance of an actual home. He's brought over some favorite books and clothes and pictures, and his diary is on the desk.
He turns on the lights for Nikola and shuts the door. "I come here to sleep a lot. Best perk of the job, really."
He turns on the lights for Nikola and shuts the door. "I come here to sleep a lot. Best perk of the job, really."
Kai on his third birthday
Jun. 24th, 2010 11:18 am[backdated to Monday]
- We speak Welsh to each other a great deal, since Lorne and I are thinking of sending him to my old school. Kai refers to it as "our special language" and he finds it incredibly funny that Daddy doesn't understand as much as he does. (Daddy does understand a bit more, but they tend to be terms we don't use in front of the child.)
- I see more and more of Lorne in him every day, now that he's shedding the baby fat. It's always been in the shape of his eyes and his mouth, but I'm noticing things now like how they have the same hands and toes, and they have the same mischievous look when they think they're getting away with something. They have the same laugh, too, when they're truly happy.
- He and Jack have a really sweet friendship. I'd never seen Jack with children much before this, but he's natural with Kai and Kai is perfectly comfortable with him. Kai has no qualms about crawling into his lap and demanding a story or a game, and Jack indulges him every time, for hours sometimes. Kai calls him "Jack-Jack." (I suspect we've let him watch The Incredibles too many times.)
- At the birthday party Kai and Rhodri both decided they were superheroes and held tea towels at their shoulders, and ran around the garden going "Zoom! Zoom!" until we brought the cake out. They also insist on sitting next to each other when we eat together.
- He likes napping on Matilda's side. Matilda usually lets him. When he can't find Matilda he'll wander the house going, "Matty, Matty..." and he'll squeal when she comes running.
- I'd be hard pressed to say what his favorite movies and stories are. He likes everything by Pixar that we have, and he gets a bit impatient with the fairy tale Disney movies. He likes things he can dance to but we've yet to try an actual musical. (Most of them are much too long for his attention span still.) He likes the music Daddy and Tada listen to more than the children's tapes we've bought, so we try to keep to the cleaner songs when he's awake.
- At bedtime he likes to pat my cheeks and say, "Scratchy Tada."
- He likes to eat hot dogs and mac and cheese, and apples without the peels, and Flake though I largely suspect it's because Tada likes it. Grandma Maureen made chocolate chip cookies, American style, and Kai's eyes got Very Very Big at the decadence of it. He can feed himself 90% of the time, though he can't handle a (very blunt, toddler-sized) knife and fork at the same time yet.
- He's never been a very talkative child, but if he's comfortable with you he'll chatter away. He'll drift between English and Welsh quite a bit, too, but mostly with me and my family. He tried it with Grandma Maureen and she said, "I don't know those words, Kai." So he set about teaching her Welsh like I've taught him, picking things up and saying their names in English and Welsh, or telling him what I'm doing as I do it. (I melted. You never realize how much children are paying attention until you see them imitating you.)
- When people asked him how old he is, he said "This many!" and held up three fingers.
- When we go for family walks I like to hang back a little with the dog and let Lorne and Kai walk ahead. Kai holds Lorne's finger and tries very hard to keep up with Daddy's strides (of course Lorne slows down for him), and they hold their heads and place their feet the same way. Kai has his shoulders, too.
- He likes coloring with crayons though he doesn't color in the lines of coloring books yet (Milena gives him reams of blank paper instead), singing, dancing, playing football, "helping" with laundry (he gets to push the wet clothes into the dryer, and when clothes are staticky when they come out it makes him laugh to pull them apart--he also has looked in the dryer for the land of lost socks [bad Tada, telling him about that]) and dishes (we let him put away his dishes, which are plastic, or carry one plate at a time), story time, nursery rhymes, and let's pretend. Sometimes he's a puppy and crawls on the floor, barking. He likes going to the beach though he doesn't like getting in the water, and he likes the park a lot: he likes to run ahead of us and run back, and say, "You're pokey!"
- He knows that I am Ianto and Daddy is Evan, and he likes to say "Kai Dylan!" like we do. (I confess, I like saying his name, too. It's a good Welsh name.)
- I don't think he's figured out how all these people fit together, what the difference is between family and friends, and who belongs to whom. He knows I call my mother Mam and call Grandma Maureen Mom, and Lorne calls them both Mom, but I don't think he knows what that means. He also knows Auntie Ellie is Rhodri's Mam but I don't think he knows what that means, either. I expect when he grasps it better he'll ask where his mummy is. We'll see.
Ianto and Sam, Cardiff
May. 31st, 2010 08:45 pmThe Hub is a bit dark, with the blue lights from the computers playing off the walls, and a soft glow from the greenhouse above the central area. Ianto flicks on a few more lights so they don't trip over the steps and their own feet, and calls, "It's just me, I brought a friend, we're going to look for things to fight demons!" in a tone that suggests he doesn't expect anyone to answer.
The others must have left for the day already, and Jack is probably on a roof somewhere.
"Let me get a notebook and we can get started," he tells Sam.
The others must have left for the day already, and Jack is probably on a roof somewhere.
"Let me get a notebook and we can get started," he tells Sam.
oi, lorne!
May. 6th, 2010 10:29 amHappy birthday, love of my life, heart of my heart.
Just call me sentimental :D.
Just call me sentimental :D.
meme war time
May. 3rd, 2010 01:45 pmOi, remember when we used to post memes and surveys and the like for each other?
( this is all TMI. )
( this is all TMI. )
a very parenthetical entry
Apr. 20th, 2010 10:23 amKai played football this weekend for the first time. He had the unfair advantage of being tiny and adorable, and so the opposing team let him get in several goals and wasn't too fussed about fouls and outs. (We'll worry more about rules when we put him on an actual team in a year or two.)
(Lornemade a lot of noises about baseball being a superior game, but I've been to a baseball game and I know the truth about that I exaggerate. He's just glad it's not rugby. He's familiar with the scars I have from it.
Baseball is still a very slow game. Verrrry slooooooow.)
(He also shouted "Gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooalllllllllllll!!!" a lot, even when nobody made a goal, which confused Kai.)
(My husband is a dork.)
(Love you, baby.)
(Lorne
Baseball is still a very slow game. Verrrry slooooooow.)
(He also shouted "Gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooalllllllllllll!!!" a lot, even when nobody made a goal, which confused Kai.)
(My husband is a dork.)
(Love you, baby.)
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Apr. 4th, 2010 10:43 amThe key is not to panic.
I've run into Daleks before, at Torchwood London. They are ruthless. They are hugely xenophobic, to the point that all other life forms are worthy only of death. And they are nigh unto impossible to kill.
If you see one, don't even run. They'll just shoot you in your tracks. Surrender instead. It may earn you a few more minutes of life.
I'm hopeful it's just our Earth they're invading. I pray that's so.
Stay safe, all of you. Hold tight to your loved ones.
Oh, God, Kai-baby. Daddy and Tada love you so much.
[Private Entry]
I have never seen Jack just shut down the way he has. Somehow, that scares me more than the rest of this.
I've run into Daleks before, at Torchwood London. They are ruthless. They are hugely xenophobic, to the point that all other life forms are worthy only of death. And they are nigh unto impossible to kill.
If you see one, don't even run. They'll just shoot you in your tracks. Surrender instead. It may earn you a few more minutes of life.
I'm hopeful it's just our Earth they're invading. I pray that's so.
Stay safe, all of you. Hold tight to your loved ones.
Oh, God, Kai-baby. Daddy and Tada love you so much.
[Private Entry]I have never seen Jack just shut down the way he has. Somehow, that scares me more than the rest of this.
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Mar. 28th, 2010 09:08 pmHad a quiet birthday this year.
Kai boggled at all the candles on my cake: when I told him there were twenty-nine of them he said, "Tada, you're old!"
Yes, beloved baby, I'm old.
I got some lovely gifts, though, many of them coffee-oriented, and my husband is going to love me up good as per our tradition.
I will leave you all with that mental image. Good night.
Kai boggled at all the candles on my cake: when I told him there were twenty-nine of them he said, "Tada, you're old!"
Yes, beloved baby, I'm old.
I got some lovely gifts, though, many of them coffee-oriented, and my husband is going to love me up good as per our tradition.
I will leave you all with that mental image. Good night.
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Mar. 11th, 2010 08:53 amJust an update: we are adjusting, both as a team and as a family. Kai has asked a few times if Toshiko is coming to visit again, but we've tried to explain it in terms a three-year-old will understand and I'm beginning to think he gets it. This has meant, though, that he's been a bit more clingy and sad when it comes time for us to leave for the day, and when people come to visit he doesn't want them to leave, either. He hardly left his gram's arms when we visited my parents last.
Fortunately Jack has proved to be a good playmate for him lately, which should probably surprise no one. He may be God-only-knows how old and has traveled to parts of the universe you and I only see in our dreams, but he's also really just a small child inside.
Lorne is perfect, as always. (Aren't you, my love?)
Fortunately Jack has proved to be a good playmate for him lately, which should probably surprise no one. He may be God-only-knows how old and has traveled to parts of the universe you and I only see in our dreams, but he's also really just a small child inside.
Lorne is perfect, as always. (Aren't you, my love?)
OOM: the Hub
Feb. 10th, 2010 09:48 amIanto is filing.
It's repetitive and soothing and doesn't require much thought, so his mind is wandering a bit.
At the moment it's wandering to Milliways and Mike's job offer, and how much fun it would be to have a regular schedule where he can experiment a bit more than he does at Torchwood, and where he can have a permanent room there for him to sneak Jack to when they need some time away . . .
And he still owes Duck a fairy tale.
And Valentine's Day is coming up.
And the file folders sliding against each other sound like holding a seashell to your ear.
It's repetitive and soothing and doesn't require much thought, so his mind is wandering a bit.
At the moment it's wandering to Milliways and Mike's job offer, and how much fun it would be to have a regular schedule where he can experiment a bit more than he does at Torchwood, and where he can have a permanent room there for him to sneak Jack to when they need some time away . . .
And he still owes Duck a fairy tale.
And Valentine's Day is coming up.
And the file folders sliding against each other sound like holding a seashell to your ear.
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Feb. 7th, 2010 05:50 pmAll,
Lorne has updated you on the situation, and I want to add thank you for all the love you've shown us.
As long as there's a Britain there will be a Torchwood. We will keep calm and carry on.
Or rather, we will carry on tomorrow. As for tonight, my duties are done here and I'm going home.
I love you all very much, and Lorne, I love you most of all.
Lorne has updated you on the situation, and I want to add thank you for all the love you've shown us.
As long as there's a Britain there will be a Torchwood. We will keep calm and carry on.
Or rather, we will carry on tomorrow. As for tonight, my duties are done here and I'm going home.
I love you all very much, and Lorne, I love you most of all.
date night with Nikola
Jan. 16th, 2010 07:51 pmThey walk through the door and . . .
Hello, Cardiff, you're unusually chilly tonight.
Hello, Cardiff, you're unusually chilly tonight.
Happy Christmas and Happy New Year
Jan. 3rd, 2010 08:28 pmI hope your holidays were as lovely as ours.
Father Christmas came for the children, of course, and they were up early to see what he brought. Kai was a bit baffled by all the gifts and food, but he's a mellow child and pretty much just rolled with it.
(And between family, friends, and Torchwood, he made out like a bandit.)
[Filtered to Jounouchi]
Jou, thank you so much for the gifts. The boys loved their four-wheelers (steered by Da and Daddy) and I'm emailing you the pictures I took.
And everything else was just stunning in its generosity. You're a good friend to our boys and believe me, the families appreciate it. You should be getting a thank-you note from Ellie soon.
Father Christmas came for the children, of course, and they were up early to see what he brought. Kai was a bit baffled by all the gifts and food, but he's a mellow child and pretty much just rolled with it.
(And between family, friends, and Torchwood, he made out like a bandit.)
[Filtered to Jounouchi]Jou, thank you so much for the gifts. The boys loved their four-wheelers (steered by Da and Daddy) and I'm emailing you the pictures I took.
And everything else was just stunning in its generosity. You're a good friend to our boys and believe me, the families appreciate it. You should be getting a thank-you note from Ellie soon.
